Beautiful Death

Beautiful Death

You'll die before you cross your heart
You'll beg to live while holding on
You've got to realize, it's seconds 'til love turns dark

And when you look your love in the eyes,
you'll see the fragile soul that hides
It's in the air, it's in your skin
Our lucid dream is withering

Did you think it'd stay forever?
'cause I'd dare to say it won't
Who took the words out your mouth,
when they said 'I love you'?

Will you shape the new world order?
I'd be happy to hear 'no'
You're finally freed from human flaws,
Now we're shaping mirrors

Come, dancing
Run, hiding

I am divine beneath my wings
Silver glows from hollow rings
The darkness' there, and I am lost
I'll pay the price, but what's the cost?

I am not the one to argue
When it comes to little lies
But now I hear them breaking glass ...
Be prepared for tomorrow

The mountain's burning in an hour
The ashes spread to unknown land
And when it's taken by surprise
The empire's falling

I am divine beneath my wings
Silver glows from hollow ringsas for the other,
I'm finally freed

I am divine beneath my wings
Silver glows from hollow rings
The darkness' there, and I am lost
I'll pay the price, but what's the cost?

I am divine beneath my wings
Silver glows from hollow rings
The darkness' there, and I am lost
I'll pay the price, but what's the cost ...?

Killing the Angel

Killing the Angel

A drop of water
On my chin
Made me look back and face the wall
I look in the sky, but see no shadows
I see no skies, as this moment's dark

I wake up screaming
For what else can I
Kill you with
Kill you with

A memory of an angel
Staring into my eyes
Crying but speechless
I'm left alone

For what is this dark I feel
When I face what I think is real
What is this loneliness?

This drop of water
Made me see
Made me see the line between
I realize that my life's falling
I'm hoping for a better end

Did you hear me shout your name?
Could you see me through the rain?
Are you there for me when I need you?

And when I close my eyes are you,
there for me when I
When I need you the most?

Death's within and I am breathing
Death's around and I am breathing
Death's sweet slumber's tempting me
I long for you ...

The Ancient Serpent

The Ancient Serpent (Awoke From Its Slumber)

Half men, half angels
Sent by God to diminish our hope
I nearly hate them
For being what they are and coming this far

Do not believe them
Gigantic lies may hide the truth
They will deceive them
Memories fade as time goes by

Water fills my lungs,
I hardly breathe
I'm drowning all along
I cannot speak
The living took my life and called it theirs
I'm drowning all along, in a fool's nightmare

This ancient book
Spread with lies
Serpent moon
Coloured skies
Archaic statements
Calls for new commandments

Water fills my lungs,
I hardly breathe
I'm drowning all along
I cannot speak
The living took my life and called it theirs
I'm drowning all along, in a fool's nightmare

Will you breathe the antique air?
Will you search for signs not there?
Will you make me look with thorns,
cause eyes bleed faster than scars reborn?

Half men, half angels
Sent by God to diminish our hope
I nearly hate them
For being what they are and coming this far

Do not believe them
Gigantic lies may hide the truth
They will deceive them
Memories fade as time goes by

A Dream I Forgot To Jot Down

A Dream I Forgot To Jot Down

I take all that is within you,
so how can you breathe?
I took the fire burning within you,
it's hard to believe
I'm dreaming
Natural breathing

I stay faceless, when faced with a wall
I think careless, with burning resolves
I'm thinking colors, red, green and blue
All I'm dreaming 'bout is killing you

Breathing emotions
Crossing thin ice
Pink skies emerging
Loose thoughts then realize

How I'm losing,
all that's around
How I'm choosing,
who's to join my round
I'm a mirror,
reflecting past
Odd dream dissolving
From the spell I cast

I take all that is within you,
so how can you breathe?
I took the fire burning within you,
it's hard to believe
I'm dreaming
Natural breathing
I'm dreaming
Natural breathing

Twin swords cutting, through my dying wrists
I feel nothing, with tragedies missed
Closed casket begging, for some more air
Three voices screaming, to creatures not there

I take all that is within you,
so how can you breathe?
I took the fire burning within you,
it's hard to believe
I'm dreaming (I'm dreaming)
Natural breathing
I'm dreaming
Natural breathing

Forgive My Death For Embracing Past

Forgive My Death For Embracing Past

More cold stones that I'm seeing
turning into sand
Make the dust, in front of my eyes, go away and die

The hatred is my sorrow
I prepared a requiem, for tomorrow

They say traitor
For leaving them behind
I'm no hatred
I'm no hatred!

Growing two eyes in the back of my skull
so I can see the rain again
That I left by tears soaked in dew
searching for a dry place to stand

Each day I spend for traveling years,
hoping I will find
A key to the future and my new dreams
But my guardian is blind

I am hopeless
Or so I was
Can I change?
Can I change tomorrow?

Growing two eyes in the back of my skull
so I can see the rain again
That I left by tears soaked in dew
searching for a dry place to stand

Each day I spend for traveling years,
hoping I will find
A key to the future and my new dreams
But my guardian is blind

Ashes on your Grave

Ashes on your Grave

My ethereal plane
Lacks mortal gain,
so are we free?
Is this life like we want it to be?
A dream (A dream!)
A dream (A dream!)

When you tuck yourself in darkness
I will still carry you all the way
And when you dream of eternal sadness
I will show you the way, like you wanted it to be

I rip my soul asunder
They can't feel me
Hear these words of thunder
"Now I'm free!"

And the ashes on your grave will,
still be mine
I'll give them the roses
Scars can blind

My ethereal plane
Lacks mortal gain,
so are we free?
Is this life like we want it to be?
A dream

My ethereal plane
Lacks mortal gain,
so are we free?
Is this life like we want it to be?
A dream

I rip my soul asunder
They can't feel me
Hear these words of thunder
"Now I'm free!"

From the ashes of your grave
I chase dark sorrow
An empty scale lacking feelings
The ashes of your grave
The dream you became
Lost to me
A dream I see
This misery
Is driving me dead

I lack the roses of your grave
I hate the feelings that are gone

Overcome by Envy

Overcome by Envy

A wind has died
I taste my night better than my day
My fairytale lost its eyes
Are we becoming part of misery?

Go, fly my angel
Spread your wings and breathe
My words are poison

Dance on the frozen lake
The water won't bite you
Can't suffocate my angel

When did you fall?
You've spilled blood in this dream
How could you crawl?
My nights are overcome by envy

Fly my angel
Open my heart

Those who seek death by praying for life
Will never forget their own sacrifice

Go, fly my angel
Spread your wings and breathe
My words are poison
My love deceased

Water Through My Blood

Water Through My Blood

A garden of burning flowers
All coughing their black skies
I throw myself to the void
Is there a better way to fly, than to wait for God to die?

Dark entities ... Hard to breathe
This air I love, they took from me

I'm bright light
I'm an angel
I am you
Unknown heaven
She is shining, washing through
So I wither
Death's not bitter
I am true

(Philosophies all made a pact
To hide from world this sacred act)

I am you
I am heaven
I am Jesus
Now we're free
I am with her
She's without me
As we're swimming to the moon

Lost and sacred
We long for the hatred
We bring life's philosophies
We long for human tragedies

Make me home
Make me scream
Make me die

In Search For Life

In Search For Life

Blood freezing in my veins
It shatters by a kiss of my rusty chains

Death is bringing me in
Left the thorns within, my soul
Gave birth to strangers from above

I see the day wither
But never when I am with her
I fall down to the deep lost seas

Scars on the inside
That tears up the outside
My lullaby will sing itself
Inside I am smiling
Outside I am waiting
For a gentle touch

A hand covered with needles will make a nice bride for
Friends in the shadows, laughter through closed doors

2012

2012

Have the last angel thrown away its wings
Can mountains fall
Will He ask us to crawl
A Prophecy
Commanding us to open our eyes and see

A falling hero remains the same
Lost angel as the one there up the stairs
Die younger
Stay buried
Find hunger, lost souls and some hate

Are we really ever hating?
All what God is creating?
Is this our last prophecy?
Is He telling us to leave?

The water opened up the gates
See us stepping to the light
We love all that the God creates
Hail night!

A falling hero remains the same
Lost angel as the one there up the stairs
Die younger
Stay buried
Find hunger, lost souls and some hate

Will the arrows be waiting?
When we love what he's hating?
Can we fly away and deceive,
The God we once believed

The water opened up the gates
See us stepping to the light
We love all that the God creates
Hail night!

Lighting
Come closer
Embrace the murder
Fall to water and swim

My Last Hours

The Other Side of Beautiful Pain

Narrator:

Alone we cannot fight the evil mankind made
No soul will give their spirit to protect us
No "God" will break the truth carved in stone
Alone we fight our death

Three saviours came to rescue an already dead planet
These were rejected, killed and forgotten
A single soul's good won't keep us from begging


The water's not moving in the wind
Icy cold north will kill
An old man is standing on our hill
What glory or shame will he bring?

Our last life we're living
Our last food we're eating
And spirit of mankind will come to rest

No joy will find its way
To this fairytale we've made
The hymn will break our grounds and then we die

Run!
Hide from the pain
Will your cries just be in vain?
You never know 'cause when the rain
Keeps washing down you die

Water ... Can't breath ... A light ...

Swimming to the light
Crossing over to the night
Making my last flight
This day will end with grief

The Blood I Breathe

My Breathe. Its Blood

As the phantom fades
I leave deep marks
I color my Self in shades

Cold wind suffocating
My own breathing feels weak
Enough ... Nonsense

Is that my heart in your hands?
Who ripped it out?
They told me to dig deeper
Dream. Head. Mind. Dead

Who stole the leaf's spirit?
So it is now nothing more than dust
Who bled its water?

The Guide's showing us the way
Killed by seven nails
We'll be living on a lie
Now we're the man that failed

Cold wind suffocating
Warm heart dripping blood
Taste it, taste!

Are you sure you saw the signs?
Cold and dripping!
If I, were the one to hide
I would flee on to the hights
Cloud's dead!

My eyes bleed and they're cold
I walk out to the lake and taste its magic
I wander lost among the dead
My sight ... Wears out

Freeze to death
Wake up from the wind
Ease the light
I cannot see the day
We're lost until I hide

Han som der står

Han som der står

En skygge
Truer mørket
Som en sten
Truer fjell

Vi har alle
Et monster
Under sengen

Kom og se min mørke frykt
Jeg har intet å skjule
De danser alene under mitt teppe
Og i min sorgs hule

Små føtter
Og mindre hjem
De tigger
Om å få hvile
Hos en makt som drepte dem

Enhjørninger er ei få
Denne stund Dem venter på
Flere ventes i Hans stue
Og Hans mørke makts gruve

Forlatte fjell
Vi venter på at vannet drukner
De er der
Sover ei bort natten
Vi klarer ikke hvile
Når nøkken ser på oss og smiler

I mørket. Dem skuer
En stemme. Av fuglers
Søte sang

Dem tar deg
Og de som deg lærte
At du skal frykte Han som venter ...

Men denne sorg vil ta slutt
Når lysets engler slukker
Og dette løp er dødt
Når Han hviler ...

Too Damn Special ...

Far Too Special For the Rest of the World

I can't cut you ...
My ice cold blood turns dark
My eyes bleed shame
For the monster I cannot tame

A Hercules' quest
To find Pandora's chest
Just to enter the void
Of dreams left destroyed

I climb the ladder to rise
Up to God and his skies
But it's when I see the rats
My whole world collapse

Alone
The hero the world would not need
And as those times passed by
He watched it torn apart by greed
And he smiled ...
A wicked smile
A happy smile
"Now, if I could only find a clean knife,"
"I would surely with dignity end my life"
"I will leave this place to find home,"
"And now I will separate my flesh and skin from the bones"

No Walls

We Have No Walls

A strange prescence
That belongs to them
We have no walls (as they)
Took it away again

Burning all eternity
Forcing tears up
Crying silence
Making a new wish to fulfill
A secret renegade

Now we speak
About what's left forgotten
And now we chase
The cold and the rotten

This feeling
Can't shake it off
Dragging me under
And killing me (murderer)

A strange prescence
That belongs to them
We have no walls (as they)
Took it away again

They have to fall
To make it too far
and now we sleep
Forever in the deep

Eating lies
To make a disguise
So cold and heavy
That my burden turns gray

We have no walls
We feel the cold
See It falling down
Feel them flow
No, never speak
When the lights go out

We have no walls
We have no walls
We have no walls
They took it away
And made us puppet hosts

Livet i døden

Livet i døden

En rose faller i mørket
Ti kniver i hjertet på den som gråter
Et øye sitter fast i sjelen
Hva skal skje når lidenskapen råtner?

Vi faller
Kan ikke se oss foruten
En verden

Et fall
Et fall på nye høyder
Ønsker oss opp igjen

Vi danser på vannet
Og tenker på andre
Som ikke er alene
Men strever med livet

Døden den er evig
Du kan si det samme om livet
Evig troskap og løfter
Når vi tar opp skarpe kniver

Blodskutte øyne
Tårer som faller
Vi når nye høyder
Nå som vi har drept dem alle

Vi faller
Kan ikke se oss foruten
En verden

Et fall
Et fall på nye høyder
Ønsker oss opp igjen

Dette er livet
Er livet i døden

Blodskutte øyne
Tårer som faller
Vi når nye høyder
Nå som vi har drept dem alle!

Dyrene sover med lukkede øyne
De ser ikke striden som dreper alt det er

Fjellene faller
Berget daler
Ned i vannet
De når oss alle
Nå som vi faller

Blodskutte øyne
Tårer som faller
Vi når nye høyder
Nå som vi har drept dem alle

Vi faller
Kan ikke se oss foruten
En verden

Et fall
Et fall på nye høyder
Ønsker oss opp igjen

Dette er livet
Er livet i døden

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Left In The Dark

Left In Darkness

A screech in the hall
End of line
The weight is heavy
Just a step behind
Praying days for dead sinners
And at that day we called them dead

Loving the knife
Cutting up misery
Bleeding deep thoughts
In decline
Forcing up wisdom
Of cause and effect
You've got no meaning when life rejects

Pushing on this strenght
That I found in the void
If the weight gets carried
My dreams will explode
Lifting up the pressure
Filling up with new lies
Cutting off round edges
This is where the kingdom lies

[Solo]

A voice in the dark
Asking for retrebution
The voice of angels
Bringing mental pollution
Tell them what you want
Call it off with peace
This is not a life
This is murder and disease

A screech in the hallway
The Line ends now
The weight gets heavy
Then they'll show you how
Praying days for dead sinners
And at that day we took their life

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When The Lights Go Out

When The Lights Go Out

When the lights go out
All the meanings lost
All the things you've had
All the dreams they shared

World is nothing, without you
I'd die forever, if you told me to
Yet the struggle within us,
is what makes us real

Dreams die, people fade
God knows how many times we've played
This game ends now, with a broken dream of sorrow

When the lights go out
You get a taste of hell
Being gone so long
Being alive and well

World is nothing, without you
I'd die forever, if you told me to
Yet the struggle within us,
is what makes us real

Dreams die, people fade
God knows how many times we've played
This game ends now, with a broken dream of sorrow

Cut the line!
We are left behind
Seek the sea
For reality

When the lights go out
We can rest our souls
Open up the box
See the newborn goals

Dreams die, people fade
God knows how many times we've played
This game ends now, with a broken dream of sorrow

Leaving what we think is real
Leaving our isle
Leaving what we call our "home"
Leaving this life

We All Deny Change

We All Deny Change (don't tell me that you're different)

I have a plan, I have a light
I have to change, to make it all right

We have to see
But why can't we
Trust ourselves and let it go...

DON'T WALK OUT ON ME!

Fuck! We were meant to be!

But you never understood me...

We're all living in darkness (One that's wearing out)

We're all watching it change

Can't we go...Where we should be..when all we see is this...?

We're never there, when they need us!

We should be blamed

This life isn't bad, just driving me mad, we have to change, yet we don't change!


Following in our sins, footsteps of murder

Still we're living in a dark place, afraid to come out again...

DON'T WALK OUT ON ME!

Just because I died

DON'T LET ME FADE!

Because you denied

We couldn't let it change (CHANGE!)

It's all the same shit

But now I see through you...

Tearing life away

Breaking steady bones

Killing off intentions

Let me be your light, let me be your guide

Don't run away, don't fucking hide!

I know this is new, I know it's killing you

But you have to see what this means to me

How can you be so fucked up?


The rain has stopped

The monster is gone

But we still run

And there's no one home...


Rejected Guidance

Rejected Guidance

Encircled by crimson eyes,
Phantoms hound him at night
Still, a voice of hope whispers gentle words

Who doesn't hate to be chased by the dark?
Who can stand the smell of hate?
A trip to hell is no trip to the park
The death awaits...

A pearl is not the answer...
A pearl is not the answer...

Search the sky, fleeing seagulls make your way
Fall only if you have the chance, you don't want to make it
They will be there, guiding you, but still you hate being last...

Body will be crushed; burned to ashes!
Your mind will still remain, when you search the masses
You see the mountain glow, you'll have to climb
The doors will soon be shut; you did not make it in time

Who doesn't hate to be chased by the dark?
Who can stand the smell of hate?
A trip to hell is no trip to the park
The death awaits...

I still hear him scream
But only in my dreams...

Dying Far Down

Dying Far Down

I drown, taking my last step
I tired if this hate
I’m not dying like a clown; I dying far down

Before you came, I had thoughts
I told myself to lie; I don’t deserve to die
Then you played and made me melt
You can’t understand just how I felt
I felt like I were alive, I wanted to survive

I gave you some gifts, to tell you this is real
But emotion’s a bitch, they’re soon revealed

I just had to tell it all, aren’t we supposed to?
I just had to let you know, that I owe you my life

Before you came, I had thoughts
I told myself to lie; I don’t deserve to die
Then you played and made me melt
You can’t understand just how I felt
I felt like I were alive, I wanted to survive

You tried to smile, but you left
You left alone, broken

I drown, taking my last step
I tired if this hate
I’m not dying like a clown; I dying far down

I’m not taking the easy way
I’ve tried to make me say that I’m okay, but I’m not

I drown, taking my last step
I tired if this hate
I’m not dying like a clown; I dying far down

Automatic Songwriting

Jeg har prøvd noe relativt nytt nå. Jeg har prøvd å skrive en sang ved å bruke ord og setninger som bare "kommer" inn i hodet mitt. Ca. 95% av den følgende sangteksten ble skrevet slik, tror kanskje en liten del av en linje kom på feil måte...
Har teksten en skjult mening? Det vet ikke jeg, jeg funderer fortsatt på tittelen...

Mistress in Charge

Correct me if I’m wrong, but don’t you hate guns?
It can hurt like hell
Who do you want to lose?
Tell me when you choose, cause that’s when you die…
Can’t say I have, I don’t know why

A murder on his feet, can’t say I know him
He stole whom he’d meet, now I’m proud
Tearless endings, he fades away in black
Fearless mirrors, attack my soul!

I don’t like to steal, he stole my everything
Can’t choose between right or wrong, no!
A tear…Dry blood
A fear, odd!
Now I feel like forgiving…

A sun she was, hidden away
Now I feel dead
Cursed by my own meanings
I don’t lie
When I call, out your name
Screaming: Why?
Why would you forgive me…?

Hate. To love
The truth, so cove-r me up, pretty bad
Cursed by my own sightings

A murder on his feet, can’t say I know him
He stole whom he’d meet, now I’m proud
Tearless endings, he fades away in black
Fearless mirrors, attack my soul!

The Light

Pre-Notes: En liten stund siden jeg har blogget nå, hadde en liten ulykke på fjellet for noen dager siden, brakk kragebenet. Så ble det ikke bedre av at jeg fikk halsinfeksjon rett etterpå heller da, men her kommer hvertfall et nytt innlegg; håper dere liker det =)
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A light

A smile from above
Placed you here
A gentle old dove
Made you care

You found your gift, and your gift is life

But you’re nothing but a light:
Soon to be gone
Have you seen the night?
You’re carefully drawn
A sick little thing
Makes Demons sing
I wonder when you’ll hate,
When you can’t create

You’re nothing but a light
(But still you live)
You cannot even fight
(Can you forgive?)

And it’s all gone; with an angels wish to die

They gave you the blood
You crave for more
Just so they could
Make you sore

You took your gift, and you gave it away

And you’re nothing but a light:
Soon to be gone
Have you seen the night?
You’re carefully drawn
A sick little thing
Makes Demons sing
I wonder when you’ll hate,
When you can’t create

You’re nothing but a light
(But still you live)
You cannot even fight
(Can you forgive?)

And it’s all gone; with an angels wish to die

Now you kill
Your own kind
They made you ill
They made you blind

Eating Shadows

Eating Shadows

Eating shadows and haunting lives
I will not be here to survive
Falling down stairs and breaking bones
Replace my thoughts with evil clones

I’m sorry to be here now
Should I just go?
But I don’t know how, to grow

Can I taste your madness?
It’s alive
Can I feel your sadness?
I strive

Eating shadows and haunting lives
I will not be here to survive
Falling down stairs and breaking bones
Replace my thoughts with evil clones

Steal my sorrows and make me lie
Never wanted to say good-bye
Hated by me and envied by them
When I am the best that I am

I would not tell the truth
When they already sleuth
I couldn’t take the past
But still I wanted to make it last

Eating shadows and haunting lives
I will not be here to survive
Falling down stairs and breaking bones
Replace my thoughts with evil clones

Steal my sorrows and make me lie
Never wanted to say good-bye
Hated by me and envied by them
When I am the best that I am

I’m sorry to be here now
Should I just go?
But I don’t know how, to grow

Can I taste your madness?
It’s alive
Can I feel your sadness?
I strive

Eating shadows and haunting lives
I will not be here to survive
Falling down stairs and breaking bones
Replace my thoughts with evil clones

Bad Times

Bad Times

When I’m forcing through the pain
I laugh
When I think of the times in peace
Knowing that it will end so soon
And there will be sunny days again

And the blood
It will be washed away, and I will smile
But now it hurts
And I do my best to think it through
By thinking of the things I’d like to do
When it’s over

Pain will soon vanish, but so will your life…

It’s cold
But I won’t freeze to death
I’ll just be strong till tomorrow
Then I’ll be having a good time

Need food
But still, if I ate I would be craving for more
So I wait
Every second leads to a start, but also an end

Would it be best to let it all go…?

Can’t take…
Now I resent those happy days
When I felt bad

More blood…
I bleed from my cold wounds, refusing to heal
I feel empty inside

I don’t care if this is the end
I’ll try, to pretend
I will live a new life, where I’d be just fine
And where the sun won’t deny to shine
When I’m forcing through the pain
I laugh
When I think of the times in peace
Knowing that it will end so soon
And there will be sunny days again

Fade Away

Fade Away
 

Thank you for you believed in me
Thank you for the trust
Look at what I'll never be; Your words will turn to dust
"Don't you be afraid, it's over soon"
That's what you said, and then I'd resume

Never think that I'm right when I'm wrong
You all know that I will never belong
You all know that I will fade away
Never think that I will last this long
Never think that I will sing my song
You all know that I would like to be alone
 

I'd make a great friend to the damned
We're all jammed, in this place called Hell
We hide in our shells and for you, we're nothing but dirt
Did you know? We're real people and we hurt
 

Never think that I'm right when I'm wrong
You all know that I will never belong
You all know that I will fade away
Never think that I will last this long
Never think that I will sing my song
You all know that I would like to be alone
 

I stopped breathing when I was five
Then I knew I wouldn't survive
When even you can hate, where the fuck is faith?
Or are we just, not the ones to live
Not the ones to forgive, could we all, just make it all stop?
 

Never think that I'm right when I'm wrong
You all know that I will never belong
You all know that I will fade away
Never think that I will last this long
Never think that I will sing my song
You all know that I would like to be alone

Think Outside the Box

Think Outside the Box

I'm thinking outside the box again, trying to start something new
A revolution within the simple mind, but what can a poor man do?
I'm looking for answers I cannot ask, would it be better if we all died?
If one man could destroy the world alive; could we blame him if he tried?

What if we lived forever? Would we then grow pleased?
We could live our life without a fear, we could live it all with ease
And also the world grew bigger, so we all could live in peace
More of the friends you love as one, but the hatred will also increase

If we don't die, it's worthless to try
I we all burn, we could al least say good-bye...

I'm thinking outside the box again, trying to start something new
A revolution within the simple mind, but what can a poor man do?
I'm looking for answers I cannot ask, would it be better if we all died?
If one man could destroy the world alive; could we blame him if he tried?

What if I gave a man my word? Would he trust me with all his heart?
Would it make him happy a day, or would it tear his heart apart?
I lose my friends when asking: why? They would always answer: I'm fine!
I hate the words: I'm sorry, they give so much meaning and they're oh, so divine!

If we don't die, it's worthless to try
I we all burn, we could al least say good-bye...

I'm thinking outside the box again, trying to start something new
A revolution within the simple mind, but what can a poor man do?
I'm looking for answers I cannot ask, would it be better if we all died?
If one man could destroy the world alive; could we blame him if he tried?

What if I gave a man my word? Would he trust me with all his heart?
Would it make him happy a day, or would it tear his heart apart?
I lose my friends when asking: why? They would always answer: I'm fine!
I hate the words: I'm sorry, they give so much meaning and they're oh, so divine!

Think outside the box!
Don't listen to them this day!
They will miss your sorrows and shocks
But you will find your way...
So think outside the box, just for one more day...


When He's Alone

When He's Alone

I'm sorry I was born
I'm sorry I'm still breathing
I'm a needle, I'm a thorn
Didn't think that you'd leaving

Hate me
Make me
Regret
Haunt me
Chase me
I'm upset
So, I go, you'll never see me again!
I hate this fucking pain, now

So I ran away from your home
Now I'm all alone, and I hate it
Turn off the lights
I'm sick, can't relate it

I'm sorry I was born
I'm sorry I'm still breathing
I'm a needle, I'm a thorn
Didn't think that you'd leaving

I'll devote my life; as you asked me to
I'll lay down my knife; as I want to do

Hate me
Make me
Regret
Haunt me
Chase me
I'm upset
So, I go, you'll never see me again!
I hate this fucking pain, now


The Holy Place

The Holy Place

I can't take it, too poor to fake it
Won't last long, 'cause I'm not strong
So I leave; I'll leave this world, and I'm hurled into this destiny
I have no reasons why
The needles hurt my eyes
I saw a whole new place
Filled with grace and my loved ones

Say good-bye my little friend
I'll soon be gone; a place called "End"
You will wish you could be here
I will wish that you'd be near
We both cry when i depart
I picked up the knife and tore my broken heart, apart

This place is filled with smiles
I think I'll stay for a while
My life, my death, my end, my holy oath

I have no reasons why
The needles hurt my eyes
I saw a whole new place
Filled with grace and my loved ones

Just let go to come around
I wouldn't hurt if you left the ground
You'll fly away and make me glad
You broke a chain you didn't have
We're united in this holy doom
Our bodies rest in our silent, lifeless tombs

This place is filled with smiles
I think I'll stay for a while
My life, my death, my end, my holy oath

I have no reasons why
The needles hurt my eyes
I saw a whole new place
Filled with grace and my loved ones
Good-bye

Hollow Without My Sorrow

Hollow Without My Sorrow

I'm hollow without my sorrow
At least the screaming kept me awake
I'm hollow without my sorrow
The grief has shattered, my anger will brake

The broken windows of my graveyard heart
Lies there empty, but they'll soon depart
I no longer have to cry
So I send the pain to sweet denial
When I'm put back to place

I have no reason to keep my feelings alive
I jumped in sin-ocean, but yet again I survived, in denial
I wish I could be send to I came from when I was born
I wish the people who knew back then, would have been warned
You should send me back with my mouth glued on
So I'd never hurt those who's known me too long

I'm hollow without my sorrow
At least the screaming kept me awake
I'm hollow without my sorrow
The grief has shattered, my anger will brake

I threw them away when the fury stopped
They stood there silent with their fingers crossed
Am I hated these days?
By the people I always praise?
But still I'm out of control...

There's always room for brokenhearted fools in the books, of love
But I yearn to see the devastated men, above us all
It's no use of me anymore, but it's always room to ignore
the failures of a lonely, mourning tragedy...

I'm hollow, without my hatred sorrow
I'm depressed, when no one can suggest
What to do, where to be, who to bribe and who I'd rather be

I'm hollow without my sorrow
At least the screaming kept me awake
I'm hollow without my sorrow
The grief has shattered, my anger will brake

I'm hollow without my sorrow
At least the screaming kept me awake
I'm hollow without my sorrow
The grief has shattered, my anger will brake
I can't take, this life, anymore...

You Hurt Me

You Hurt Me

You’re hurting me
Can’t you see you’re hurting me?
There some words you shouldn’t say
But still you yell them everyday

And I need the stupid love
Please give some more love
Show me that you care
Show that you can be there, for me
Now, when I need you…

Stupid child, why are you so lame?
Go, take the blame, you’re such a shame
Step out of the light,
someone might see you and it’s not a pretty sight
Nothing you do is right, and now I am polite
If I had to be rude, and I’m in a bad mood
I would tell you the things I’d been wanting to tell you for years

You’re hurting me
Can’t you see you’re hurting me?
There some words you shouldn’t say
But still you yell them everyday

I’m a human
Humans can cry, they can live on a lie that will lead them to their death
I don’t think I’m normal
I am strange
And I can’t change, the one I am
But still I hope
I beg and pray
That I stop my feelings inside
Before the end of this lousy day
But the tears won’t stop, when they’re coming up
I see you laughing at me

“When I get old, I’ll move away”
That’s at least what I will say
When you’re mad
When I’m sad
When you force the sorry out of me
When I fall
When I’m small
I will let you walk alone
When I scream
When you seem to be the only one around
Oh, no
And I still can’t see you proud of me

You’re hurting me
Can’t you see you’re hurting me?
There some words you shouldn’t say
But still you yell them everyday
You are hurting me
Can’t you see that you are hurting me?
There some words you shouldn’t say
But still you yell them every day…

Dear Lucid Dreams

Dear Lucid Dreams

Shout!
Your wishes will come true
Jump!
If you don't what to do

You can live your life a lie
You can push the truth aside
But you can't make what you've not seen
You can't be where you've not been
In your lucid dreams
Not everything is what they seem

Say that you want to fly, to touch the skies or even die
You can try, you can fail, but you can never prevail
Inhale this momentary air, don't fear the things you see
This is how it's really like to be;
A human like me

Are you sleeping now? Or am I just mad?
I turn this feelings to something sad as life...

Create your friends,
Burn your foes
What the limits are?
Just no one really knows

But what happens when you awake?
Can you take this shocking truth,
You are nothing but a slueth
And you're not even real
In my ideal world

I have to ask him this:
Tell me, do I exist?
Cause I can't remember my name
It's just the same for me
My true potpouerri

You can live your life a lie
You can push the truth aside
But you can't make what you've not seen
You can't be where you've not been
In your lucid dreams
Not everything is what they seem


Half As Bad As You

Half As Bad As You

Can you spend a dollar on a poor man?
He hasn't ate since last month began
Can you help him stand by himself?
I know you can, and I know you won't

I'm not half as bad as you!
At least I don't smoke cigars
I'm not half as bad as you!
At least I don't have a car
I'm not half as bad as you,
and still you turn and walk away

He lies there hungry, asks for food
"We can't help him, he's already screwed"
Why do you think that you're the best?
I see your money, but I'm not impressed

I'm not half as bad as you!
At least I don't smoke cigars
I'm not half as bad as you!
At least I don't have a car
I'm not half as bad as you,
and still you turn and walk away

"He probably use our money for drugs,
Poor old thugs..."
Don't you with judge with your eyes closed
Don't you come here with your mormose

He's not half as bad as you
At least he doesn't smoke cigars
He's not half as bad as you
At least he doesn't have a car
He's not half as bad as you,
and still you turn and walk away...

We're not all the same!
We're not all of shame!
But I suppose, no one knows!

He's not half as bad as you
At least he doesn't smoke cigars
He's not half as bad as you
At least he doesn't have a car
He's not half as bad as you,
and still you turn and walk away


I don't want no requiem

I don't Want No Requiem

When I finally am gone
I will shatter in the dawn
Don't feel sorry for me
This is how I want it to be

No long good-byes
Or tears in your eyes
It's okay to wave
Then let me rest in my grave

I don't want no requiem
When I am gone
I don't want no requiem
When I am withdrawn

This will be
Their final memory
of me, when I'm gone
I'll be foregone

I don't want no requiem
When I am gone
I don't want no requiem
When I am withdrawn

You can cry if you must
When I return to dust
This is how I'll end
Or at least I'll pretend

So this is how it goes
No one really knows
The way I really feel
And I won't reveal

'Cause
I don't want no requiem
It's not for me, I want you to see
I don't want no requiem
No, no, no
I don't want no requiem
I don't, want no requiem

My secret hiding place

My Hiding Place

One day, I want to stay inside
And just hide, from this earth
And I will sink, to the ground
I want to be heard

They can’t find me where I am now
The can’t see me when I’m gone
I’ve left, I am nowhere to be found
You think you see me? Then you’re wrong
I’ve been trapped inside here, for so long
My secret hiding place
I love my secret
Hiding place
And it’ll last until you’re gone

I will do no harm, for a while
I will go to a place in my mind, a friendly isle
I will live alone, no food to eat
I will almost die, then I’ll retreat

Then I’ll be back
I’ll rise to the skies
And shut my eyes so black
Filled with lies

They can’t find me where I am now
The can’t see me when I’m gone
I’ve left, I am nowhere to be found
You think you see me? Then you’re wrong
I’ve been trapped inside here, for so long
My secret hiding place
I love my secret
Hiding place
And it’ll last until you’re gone

One day, I won’t go out
Be where I am
I’m afraid of you
What a shame

No, I’m not afraid
I just evade
When it comes to those matters

They can’t find me I’m not even here
The can’t see me when, I’m scared
I’ve left, You can’t find me here or there
You think you see me? Then, keep on your strife
I’ve been trapped inside here, all my life
My secret hiding place
I love my secret
Hiding place
And it’ll last until you’re gone
My hiding place, of disgrace
My secret hiding place

In Uterus

In Uterus

It was unbelievable
What my eyes had seen
They looked up at the world
On a screen

The creator might've had a plan
When he made this, pathetic man
But did he think, about the choice
Giving humans, a voice

I'm seeing, I'm being here
Afraid of, being near

There he lies, can't be changed
Here I am, somewhat deranged

Who put us up to this?
It can't be true
What I would have to do
Just to make it up for you
Why can't you see
I'm not free

What will come after the fall...?

Will I still "Be"?
Can I flee?
To a second agree of freedom
 
Will I burn?
Will I learn something?

It all depends on you...And Him...

You're rich enough to let me go
I'm poor enough to see the show...

Min sang...

My Last Goodbye


You know, when I keep falling
You keep smiling, you just don't give a damn 'bout me
When I have troubles, You look away

We're not perfect, You and Me
We weren't meant to be, You see
We might be contagious, so...
Don't you even think about
Catching your butterflies
All they do is flying away
I'll hope you'll stay, you know I miss you
Everyday

Don't smile when thinking of pain
It might contain your tears
And don't you go insane,
I need to maintain our lives,
for You and I
Have to say our last goodbye
Before I die


Please hope, I wish to believe you can
only understand my doubts of the way i act,
When you're not here, I don't even care
Just to share our prayers, in our joy and despair
So don't you try to run away...

I will protect you, even if you won't
You know I love you, even if you don't
We might be contagious, so...
Don't you even think about
Catching your butterflies
All they do is flying away
I'll hope you'll stay, you know I miss you
Everyday

I'm a fool, I know
But I also know that I can't go
A day without thinking of you
And I hope, I dream
That everything will be the way it seems, to me...

The End of My Journey

Atter en sang, atter en sang der dere ikke kan vite melodien, må vel finne på noe nytt snart =)

The End of My Journey

Arrive at your destination
Please remain calm
Now, to my presentation
Where I will do you harm

No light or fire
Blinded by hate
Lifts me higher
Fed by a bait

Bring your dirty gun
Or your fist will do just fine
We’re gonna have some fun
You’ll hopefully whine

I been so strong
I came so long
And now I know,
It’s The End Of My Journey
The end of all pain
You will suffer forever
Tied to your chain

I will be free
Nobody’s bugging me
A guarantee?
I disagree

Scream!
It’s just a dream
So extreme
So supreme

Then close your eyes
Tighten your thighs
Jump to the skies!

You can fly
Never die
Wonder why?
Then say good-bye
And move on

I been so strong
I came so long
And now I know,
It’s The End Of My Journey
The end of all pain
You will suffer forever
Tied to your chain

The end of my journey,
It’s the end of my journey
Never sleep again!
In The End of Your Journey…

En liten sang...

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Sung slowly)
A lousy word, most stupid thing I’ve heard
Get rid of your life, pick up the knife,
Come on and Die!

Cry now
Do you really wanna, Try now?
You should think about your precious persons

Try now
Do you really wanna, Die now?
You know that life is far too important to get sick of

Kill me
Then you really gonna Free me
Cause once I thought it really mattered

I don’t think
I will stay
I won’t stand
In the way

Of making new,
Just a few,
Stupid plans

(Spoken)
“Please, don’t take what is mine,
please let me live!”

Cry now
Do you really wanna, Die now?
You should think about your precious persons

Try now
Do you really wanna, Die now?
You know that life is far too important to get sick of

I am not an enemy
I got no abilities…

Even though I got my free will
I’m not sure whether to take the pill,
And lose all that I know,
Or freak out and go

Responsibility…
What a silly thing
It’s all in the ring
And I am the king

Cut of my wings
I’ll take what it brings
Just keep up the song and sing…

Cry now
Do you really wanna, Try now?
You should think about your precious persons

Try now
Do you really wanna, Die now?
You know that life is far too important to get sick of

Take me
Could you even, Make me?
The creation is all the same…